Everytime I Try

Everytime I try
I get pushed aside
They never let me in
No matter how I try

I couldn't realize
Until I closed my eyes
Until I found the light
When I saw through my pride

'Cause I just wanted them to feel my flow
But how I could be so dumb
Expecting them to feel
When all my thoughts were out of line with truth

I know my purpose I'm here for the youth
Intentions are pure I make suffering smooth
People be thinkin' my heart is naive
They don't know I look at the earth from the moon

They don't know how my words have the power to bend
They don't know how that we all come from the same womb
You pretend that you got it, I know
You don't really have a clue
You think that you do, but we all can see through

Everytime I try
I get pushed aside
They never let me in
No matter how I try

I couldn't realize
Until I closed my eyes
Until I found the light
When I saw through my pride

I know how it is to be everyone's joy
I know how it is not feel an ounce of it yourself
To see yourself in the mirror
And hate your face, and deeper than that
See the side, the voices, the thoughts that no one else sees
To know how unworthy of breathing you are
To truly believe that the world would be
Better without your existence!

But haven't you had enough?
'Cause I had enough
Enough of the ego and unconscious part of me
Every day now I make a new reality
I'm moving closer to who I'm supposed to be
Supposedly, I feel, I dream
The I in me, is not what I thought it to be, the I, my pride
It all dissolved when I, realized, that to live, the I, has to die

Everytime I try
I get pushed aside
They never let me in
No matter how I try

I couldn't realize
Until I closed my eyes
Until I found the light
When I saw through my pride

Everytime I try
I get pushed aside
They never let me in
No matter how I try

I couldn't realize
Until I closed my eyes
Until I found the light
When I saw through my pride

'Cause I just wanted them to feel my flow
But how could I be so dumb
How could I be so numb
How could I be so

How could I be so blind
How I could not I rewind

So what if you're the richest man in the whole cemetery
So what if you have everythin' but all you do is worry
Don't be a sheep let em have at you
Don't believe cause your family do
Life is here and now, but you only wanna be Harry

I know I'm powerless, I got my fights
I don't know cowardice, but I know might
When I'm in service in to you then I fly, yeah

Everytime I try
I don't know why
They never let me in
No matter how I try

I couldn't realize
Until I closed my eyes
Until I found the light
When I saw through my pride

Everytime I try
I get pushed aside
They never let me in
No matter how I try

I couldn't realize
Until I closed my eyes
Until I found the light
When I saw through my pride