Consensual

Expectations so low
Been disappointed before
Been tryna get to know
Why're you making it so difficult?

I'm looking for friendship there's no rush for that other shit
If what you're afraid of is commitment
Then that's the problem
Isn't it?

Loving is easy, it's hate that takes more work
After everything you've put me through
That's the only word

Call me needy, you just couldn't keep up

So is that why I feel guilty
When I want you to spend your time with me?

I only exist when it's convenient
I'm not a priority
It's easy to tell when
You take half a day to get back to me
What a fucked up treatment
When did I subscribe
For this mockery

Cause even though I enable you to feel different
We'll always be a missed connection
What we had is still existing
But I must be the only one with that inclination

The power I'm giving up isn't
Consensual
On something spiritual
Our stars must have aligned
After all

Didn't know what we mean
Or what it's like to truly be seen
Not yet

Was loving and living in the moment
I didn't think there'd be consequence
Yet everytime I let my guard down I learn something different

Someday soon I will complete my mission

And it won't be through submission