A Life To Fail

Smiling and talking
Into a conversation
Just
To think about
Anything else
Having to listen

I feel empty
I'm not listening
I won't fake that I'm sorry to justify me
And the truth
I don't really care
About what they're saying
I'm better by myself

Sometimes I don't want to hear a thing
My friends are starting to understand
I think about anything else
I'm not hiding it
Having to
Listen to the things they say
My friends are starting to understand (they do)
I don't know why I'm constantly angry
They are going to leave me be

I just don't want to hear them complain
Get the fuck out of here
I don't want to listen to your painless life
All-day and all night
It's too much pain

I need a therapy
To get this shit out of me

So I don't fail it all
I don't want to see my world fall apart again
A life to fail
People to lose

The time has come
To get through this
The time has come
To get through this

To make this right again

I want to change the way I think
Is it too late?
Do I still have a chance to be saved?

I'm afraid of what I might have become
Is it too late?
I know the will the will sometimes is all that counts
And now I beg myself to change
Do I still have a chance to be saved?
To be saved?