fun (feat. Gabrielle Grace)

Was it fun
No, it was boring and I wanted fun
Why was I so dumb

I wasn't dumb
Oblivious to what I had become
What have I become
I just wanna have fun

I don't wanna hold onto somebody else
I need something real so I can feel myself
Growing, changing, I am the thriving one
Wish you'd see what I'm spending my money on

I'm a little healthier when I'm alone
But I've got my friends and they've all met my dog
Do they hear the difference in my tone
I got to a place where I love myself

Talk myself in circles
I need a friend
To tell me I'm not crazy
And make amends
I'm feeling like a zombie
When I'm in bed
Just wake me up
I'm seeing the living dead

Oooo
Are we having fun
Oooo
I need to call someone
To shoot me straight and keep me accountable
Remind me that self care isn't flammable

I don't wanna hold onto somebody else
I need something real so I can feel myself
Growing, changing, I am the thriving one
Wish you'd see what I'm spending my money on

I'm a little healthier when I'm alone
But I've got my friends and they've all met my dog
Do they hear the difference in my tone
I got to a place where I love myself

Oooo
Are we having fun
Oooo
Are we having fun
Oooo
Are we having fun
Oooo
Are we having fun

I don't wanna hold onto somebody else
I need something real so I can feel myself
Growing, changing, I am the thriving one
Wish you'd see what I'm spending my money on

I'm a little healthier when I'm alone
But I've got my friends and they've all met my dog
Do they hear the difference in my tone
I got to a place where I love myself