Ever Been

I've spent some years
Living Devilish

I used to think
That id never win

When I look back on my
Life and all of my mistakes
I'm surprised that he still called me anyway

I done been down to the bottom
And I been down to the bottom of so many bottles

Pills I was poppin
Then he changed everything

Now I'm more blessed than I ever been

For a while I had to lay low
Drama and the rumors and the lies
They swirling all around my head
Felt like I'm caught in a tornado

Then they tried to kick me while I'm down
And pour salt all in my wounds
They said they hope a hitta stay broke

Funny how these people
Turn their back on you
When they think you ain't got it
And they claiming that you they folks

Guess I'm showing them what they know
I'm praying God come get 'em
How you got opinions bout a life you ain't living
I should probably hand out W-2's
To all these women and these rappers
That be commenting and all in my business
No kidding

You should stay all in your lane
Like your tryna park a new foreign thing
With the paint job finished
And your squeezing in the spot
And can't parallel park
Or put a scratch up on the car
Cause it's rented

I've spent some years
Living Devilish

I used to think
That id never win

When I look back on my
Life and all of my mistakes
I'm surprised that he still called me anyway

I done been down to the bottom
And I been down to the bottom of so many bottles

Pills I was poppin
Then he changed everything

Now I'm more blessed than I ever been
I'm just feeling like I'm blessed
Now I'm more blessed than I ever been
I'm just feeling like I'm blessed
Now I'm more blessed than I ever been

It's been a long way back
After falling off
A lot of trials and tribulations a lot of pitfalls
And I ain't never really been the one to play the victim
Tell me who I'm supposed to blame
These wounds were self inflicted
Now I'm reaching all my goals
And I'm touching road
Making peace with fake friends
That done turned to foes
It's either murk you or forgive you
That was for my soul
But I'm positioned near the Sun (Son)
And that's how I grow

Now I'm winning like I'm supposed to
I done been to hell and back
And had my back against the wall
But now I made it and I'm standing on my own two
God just doubled up my bag
I told my baby pack her bags
I'll book the flight
We gone vacation every month boo

This what happens when you lock into your faith
And never waiver and never fold
In spite of everything you go through
Take a picture of you want to

Break it down

Truth be told I'm just a product of his Grace
And I don't deserve this spot or this space
I remember times at 2am
That I would look into the mirror
And I would hate to see the sight of my own face
So I sought his face
And me made me a believer
And he removed the people
That were Brutus to my purpose
Tryna see me in the earth
So I would never see this moment
Where I'm stunting on my demons
Blessings falling on my Caesar

Yea

I've spent some years
Living Devilish

I used to think
That id never win

When I look back on my
Life and all of my mistakes
I'm surprised that he still called me anyway

I done been down to the bottom
And I been down to the bottom of so many bottles

Pills I was poppin
Then he changed everything

Now I'm more blessed than I ever been
I'm just feeling like I'm blessed
Now I'm more blessed than I ever been
I'm just feeling like I'm blessed
Now I'm more blessed than I ever been