Camino Santa Fe

I tried writing in pages this time
Hoping that it'd stay in the lines
Unlike the fairytales and story books I'd read
Wishing I could relive everything

Cos' it ebbs and flows like the waves
But I wish it didn't even stay
It's not a reoccurring movie scene
I wanna play
Again and over and over again
Till' I suffocate
And I can't explain
To my friends
Why I'm gone again
Or to my sister
On the other side of the wall
And I've tried
Tried to resurface
Before it
Rises and falls
But I've got a dozen missed calls

So here I am
On the sidewalk
Right along
Camino Santa Fe
It's been 19 years
Can you blame me?
I've had a long day

And she's on the line
Asking where I am
And I stand
Oh I hesitate
She's probably not that far but now I'm

Counting cars
God I'm falling apart
And every headlights coming closer
But I keep moving further
Just down this edge
But it's my bestfriend
And she slows down
Asks me why
And I don't know what to say
But can you blame me?
It's been a long day

I need to go

I need to go
I know you don't
Please let me go
It's been a long day
Is it my fault?
I need to go
Isn't this my calling?
It's not my fault
Was it my fault?