Deserve This

Through all of the good times and all of the bad
I always knew that you would have my back
Despite all the suffering below the surface
You always promised me that we would be worth it

Now that you're gone, I know it's my fault
And I should have listened to you when you called
Maybe if I put my feelings aside
You would still be here and I would be fine

And I'll always hate myself for those phone calls
I promised I'd be there but I let you fall
I'll always hate how I said my goodbye
It felt like I was losing you from my life
Wish I could go back and redo that day
'Cause I would tell you that I wanted to stay
I was given a choice impossible to make
And all I want right now is to hear you say that
You're here
But I know that you're not
'Cause look at the damage and chaos I've caused
I'm sorry we ended the way that we did
'Cause my darling, my love, you didn't deserve this

And I know that you're probably moving on
And after I hurt you I'm sure that you're done
But I hope that you're not forgetting about me
'Cause I'm still thinking about you somewhat constantly
I know that it's not fair for me to ask you
To put your life on hold while I'm with someone new
But I didn't end things cause I fell out of love
I broke up with you cause I loved you too much

And I'll always hate myself for those phone calls
I promised I'd be there but I let you fall
I'll always hate how I said my goodbye
It felt like I was losing you from my life
Wish I could go back and redo that day
'Cause I would tell you that I wanted to stay
I was given a choice impossible to make
And all I want right now is to hear you say that
You love me
But I know that you don't
And I'll always hate myself for letting you go
I'm sorry we ended the way that we did
'Cause my darling, my love, you didn't deserve this

And baby I know I betrayed you
But darling you know that I need you
You have every right to hate me
And I don't deserve you forgiving me
If I'm the last person you want to see
I need you to know that this is my
Apology

And I'll always hate myself for those phone calls
I promised I'd be there but I let you fall
I'll always hate how I said my goodbye
It felt like I was losing you from my life
Wish I could go back and redo that day
'Cause I would tell you that I wanted to stay
I was given a choice impossible to make
And all I want right now is to here you say that
We'll make it
And I know that we will
I just wish you were the one dating me still
I'm sorry we ended the way that we did
'Cause my darling, my love, you didn't deserve this