A Taste of Pain

I walk alone, alone alone alone
Feeling sad and so blue
Wondering if you love me, or do I love you
Oh yeah, yeah

That's what love will do

I'm writing these bars to show off my wounds and scars
I hope you like what you see
Ain't nobody really as damaged but pretty as me
A beautiful soul
But I been abused and taken for granted though
Still I got love to give
I'm sick of these let downs, can somebody pass me the antidote
Down to my last attempt
Afraid to commit for the risk I could get my heart smashed again
It's miraculous
The way I get treated, and still I get up
And come back again
And though I resent love
I can't give up hope because pimping is not in my blood
So outta the mud, I pull myself back to the surface
Guess love is a helluva drug
Cause you left a mark, you left me a stain
All of these blemishes come from your pain
I took on the weight of your soul
I took on your problems
And never once did I complain
Don't mean to be rude
But you lost my trust
To get this shit back, you got something to prove
So show me the realest you
Tell me the truth
Your say we forever
But produce the proof

I don't wanna hear it from your lips
I wanna feel it with your heart and soul
If you wanna save this relationship
You should know you got full control
Cause when I blast off like a rocket ship
You should remember what you been told
Niggas like me, we some rare ass breeds
You better love me now, or leave me alone

(According to my memory)
(Look at all our history)
(Feeling like it's better when I'm on my own)
(You draining all my energy)
(Put me out my misery)
('Fore u make my heart of gold turn to stone)

You say that's love
I say it's toxic as hell
With our dynamic, we destined to fail
So take me from out of this cell
This ship has sailed
This back and forth bad for my health

This anger and liquor a bad combination
My rage at its peak
Pick up the pieces, I don't think I will
This feeling is not for the weak
I can't even speak, I just wanna leave
Just pull out the dagger, don't care if I bleed
It's outta my reach to stay in this prison
I gave you my everything, you took my everything
All of my passion, my joy, and my energy
I can't believe I'm back to the bottom
Looking for answers inside of these bottles
You leading me on to a place I can't follow
You to the hellish abyss
In spite of our issues, I know when you gone I'ma miss
You pissed on all of my love
So I wrote this letter and sealed it with one final kiss
Bitch

On a rainy day, a day in May
You can hear me say
There must be a reason why, I don't know
There must be a reason why, I don't know
Spend my life in misery, loving you
Spend my life in misery, loving you