To Lose Sleep

Each and every single night
As I lay down to my bed
I close my eyes
And the anxiety takes over

I try so hard to sleep
But it seems impossible
To just drift away, just close my eyes
And rest my soul

I just don't understand
Everything was going so well
Where did I go so fucking wrong?

Was it something I said?
Was it something I did?
Was it gonna be like this all along?

Was it ever the truth?
Did she ever mean it?
How could she make me feel so lost?

Now that the deed has been done
Now that the words have been said
I don't know what to think
Was there truth in anything you said?

Your lies, they never end
How dare you walk on me?
You made it look so easy!

But now I see
Because you opened up my eyes

For days, I could not even fall asleep
For so long all food had lost its taste
But now I see the light
At the end of this darkened mind

You lied about everything
You lied right from the start
But now this same depression
Takes over your life

But here's the difference between you and I
I'm stronger now than ever before
Did you have fun using me?
I sure fucking hope you did

For days, I could not even fall asleep
For so long all food had lost its taste
But now I see the light
At the end of this darkened mind

Do you deserve this?
I think so, just because
I sure as fuck did not

You deserve this depression
You dug your own grave
Now feel the pain
That you put me through

And now I bid you goodbye,
Along with all my wasted time!

For days, I could not even fall asleep
For so long all food had lost its taste
But now I see the light
At the end of this darkened mind