Self Diagnosed

I'm lost in fields of my head
Frost from the cold hurts my chest
If the sun don't show I'm meeting death
Trapped inside I'm feeling stressed
I'm a self diagnosed agnostic
Hate the taste or I'd be an alcoholic
Working countless hours, feel lethargic
Ex friends stuck a label to me, toxic
Tired mind terrified cancer lies inside
Lived a lie until it was me, I couldn't recognize
Trying to see through this cloud of darkness
Full of memories getting less and less harmless
Brought into this world without instructions
Poorly put together and full of malfunctions
Chained with grief from the loss of someone close
These recent years have faded all my hope
When the outside is freezing cold
And I decide to leave without my coat
Please help me
Cause I don't plan on coming home
Sickness wants to take my life like a bandit
My family they don't understand it
How could I think to do something so tragic
Clouds my mind so often its a habit
Stranded in a season of death
I've got astray love I don't wanna forget
Will I be alone when I take my last breath
Wishing in the end to hit reset
I'm a self diagnosed agnostic
Hate the taste or I'd be an alcoholic
Working countless hours, feel lethargic
Ex friends stuck a label to me, toxic
Tired mind terrified cancer lies inside
Lived a lie until it was me, I couldn't recognize
Trying to see through this cloud of darkness
Full of memories getting less and less harmless
Always worried that death is near
Doesn't matter cause to everyone I'm hardly here



Credits
Writer(s): Bryant Head
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