Ghost

I'm tryna work on becoming more vulnerable
But I'm walled off tryna breathe with my pen and a straw
I'm sure there's a reason why, it's a reason i choose to ignore
I'm hurting but I'd rather pour, the glass ain't half full anymore
I'm hopelessly helping hoping that somebody notice
But if they do I lose focus, forget these things that are closest
If that's all that's behind the door then I'd rather just close it
Climbing high, when you stuck at your lowest
That's the problem, I got problems
And I honestly don't how imma solve them
I'll just put them in my vault and I'll dive in
To the waters of distraction til I close my eyelids
My brain is racing hard and I mind it
Where's the real me, don't know where to find him
It's a complex situation but I'm tryin
If I say I'm Gucci mane, know I'm prolly lying

Got a lot of water fillin up my boat
Still can't imagine why it's hard to stay afloat ya
I'm just tryna make it on my own ya
Feelin empty got me lookin like a ghost
I guess that I am hollower than most
I can feel my own hands round my throat ya
Suffocating while im tryin not to choke ya
Hoping no one gonna see me like a ghost

I'm not gonna act like I'm more depressed than I am homie
But I also won't just sit here and act like I don't understand wholly
I wish I could stand fully for the one who stands Holy
But i'm too lonely, I can feel reality slipping slowly
That's just a lot to fathom, I feel the weight of this chasm
See too many people that bashin, other people cause of they status
My world descends into madness, just a sense of a people's depravity
Think it's stealing my gladness, not really sure what that one means to me
I'm feeling fake, like artificial chasing things that I lack
I'm transparent and it's apparent I'm not watching my back
This is more than a track, I run until I collapse
So I can forget the fact, that my emotions turned stagnant
Why do I feel this way, people asking for reasons
If I give an answer they don't like, they call it treason
They all spring up just to fall off, watch them switch up like the seasons
If their motives are egregious, makes it harder to believe them

Got a lot of water fillin up my boat
Still can't imagine why it's hard to stay afloat ya
I'm just tryna make it on my own ya
Feelin empty got me lookin like a ghost
I guess that I am hollower than most
I can feel my own hands round my throat ya
Suffocating while im tryin not to choke ya
Hoping no one gonna see me like a ghost

Like a ghost, like a ghost
Hoping no one gonna see me like a ghost ya
Hoping no one gonna see me like a ghost ya
Hoping no one see me like a ghost

I am hollower than most
Feel my hands round my throat ya
Suffocating and Im trying not to choke ya
Hoping no one see me like a ghost