Communication

I got a lot up on my mind
Shout out the boys
Shoutout every bitch that broke my heart, I appreciate you

See I've been feeling pain but it's not only cause of you
I can admit when I'm the problem it's just not the only truth
And if I had a couple issues should I talk them out with you
Or would you say that their about you so I should talk to someone new
I know you can not see my problems like you stepping in my shoes
But that don't mean that you can't try to see it from my point of view
I feel like every time we argue man there's always something new
But then the outcome stays the same and so the future's lookin' blue
Communication is that key that I would always preach about
And I know you got sick of hearing me say talk it out
but I would say it cause I know how it feels to start to shout
And talk about something so passionate and still not be heard out
I feel like every chance I get I reassure you that you mine
But every time you'd hear it you'd act like it ain't worth your time
And when I try to talk it out and show you all the reasons why
The only thing you want to say is that you feel we doing fine
But if I only brought it up like once or twice that would make sense
But after like eight or nine the feelings with you get more tense
And in my head all I want is to work it out and just forget
But it's like I'm turning the key inside an engineless corvette
Just hoping that I'll hear the sound of that exhaust just rumbling
You been running through my mind but man you keep on fumbling
Because I've learned that reassurance isn't always comforting
Because you tell me that were good but I'm still here so discontent
And it's the love I've had for you since day one that keeps me here
It's the thought of you with someone else that whispers in my ear
And it's the pain of thinking of you getting hurt by some bitch
Who don't know how to treat you how I treat you when I'm near
I ain't never been jealous, but I just want to feel some love
And I ain't never been bitter, I just wanna feel a hug
And I've been sitting here just overthinking about my next text to you
Cause I don't know if I Should say what's up or that I love you
Cause I feel deep down inside you read my texts and don't reply
Because you wanna save that burden for another lonely time
When your man ain't picking up and all your hoes won't hit your line
You'll hit me up because you know I'll always be here when it's time
And everyone will say it's my fault, but they don't know that I know it
I mean I'm so damn self-aware I even typed it out and wrote it
But I'll still answer the phone and say hello and how's it going
Because my brain says I should stop while my heart for you keeps growing

And after all these years of life I still can't seem to understand it
How that beautiful white smile caused me so much of this damage
I ain't blaming you for fuckin with me just for how you managed
To fog up every lense I had so then you had the advantage
Started asking about our body counts, I said that I'm at nine
Then I asked you the same thing you said that you only at five
But if we count those guys you made out with in front of me that night
That number goes up one or two but you can add one cause I died inside
Side to Side fumbling those thoughts of where I lost track
Gathering my sadness that kept telling me I'm so wack
Cause I let you step on me while my movie played the soundtrack
That would usually just end the movie but I'm still here backtracked
While I tell myself that maybe one day I will be enough for you
Do thoughts of him come up whenever I'm here and start to comfort you
A hopeless romantic was not inside my plans to fucking do
But still I'm planning for a future that will never ever come true