Ebb and Flow

I've been pacing this wall, but it won't crumble
Spend my days caught up in dread

But that glint in my eyes that made you stumble
I'm gonna get it back

When we locked eyes in that twilight garden
I didn't know i could feel so seen

But months rolled by, showed this is not our timing
And i've been reeling

So i send ya light and love and it's enough
I send ya light and love and it's enough
I send you love

(I spent my whole life saying "i want a lover as brave and kind as i am"
Yet he stood in front of me and i could not let him in

The moment i realized this, that my wall is what kept you
I crumbled, cracked open, praised the skies
I have been found

And now, i spend my every day in praise, in openness
Telling those parts of me that kept you away, "its okay
We can open now, you are safe"

Though you are gone, you are not in my days
My fear has been cut at the root, just for knowing you)