Hard To Check Up

The only way to die
Is slowly cause
Our lives and fates
Are in...
They're in the mud

Hard to check up on you
When I feel like Im declining
Hard to check up on you
When I feel I am dying

Hard to check up on you
When the drugs Kickin in
Hard to check up on you
When the drugs need a friend

But that's okay
I got my k
Like every day
What can I say

I see a line
And drift away
No one can tell me what to do
That's what I say

But you looked through it
Yeah you knew it
When you saw my face

I saw through it
Yeah I knew it
When you crossed my way
But I'm still Fiending

With these demons
Up in outer space
No one helps me
In the pit of sin

Inner rage
But that's okay
Cause I get it
From the sin of chase

And if you lookin for it
You will find me out the way
That's the only place
That seems to quell the inner face

With all the pain that's in this life
On the day to day
I cannot hide it anymore
I'm not sure what to say

The only way to die
Is slowly cause
Our lives and fates
Are in...
They're in the mud

Hard to check up on you
When I feel like Im declining
Hard to check up on you
When I feel I am dying

Hard to check up on you
When the drugs Kickin in
Hard to check up on you
When the drugs need a friend

When I didn't have it
I was livin outta grocery bag
Didn't have a figure
But at least I was a happy cat

Now even crawling seems to
Cause another heart attack
That's when I grasped
That maybe I've been livin life too fast

Move past that
Can't grasp that
With all these drugs I'm on
I couldn't even drag that

One last pack
One last pass
Will you be cryin
When I'm lyin in a dirt nap

The only way to die
Is slowly cause
Our lives and fates
Are in...
They're in the mud

Hard to check up on you
When I feel like Im declining
Hard to check up on you
When I feel I am dying

Hard to check up on you
When the drugs Kickin in
Hard to check up on you
When the drugs need a friend