The Day After

At 17 i didn't think i'd make it to 20
But i wrote this song when i was 21
I know it's not a big number but i never thought I'd see
The earth make so many circles round the sun

I thought my life was disposable, so I'd throw it away
But i never really had the nerve to take out the trash
It was like some part of me always understood
That soul can't burn away like smoke and ash
That soul can't burn away like smoke and ash

How do i make sure that i get out of bed today
How do i make sure i don't regret getting out of bed today
I have to make sure somehow that i get out of bed today
So how do i make sure that i get out of bed today

I miss your stink and the way our bodies
Fit together when we spoon
But you got tired of me barking at your finger
When you were pointing at the moon

And i'm so so tired of waiting for myself to happen
I'm so so tired of waiting for myself to happen
And you're so so tired of waiting for me to happen
So so tired of waiting for me to happen

Well i know i have to manage it, some way or some how
'Cus nobody's waiting behind me as the years turn under the plow
I can count em off on my hand, it's been a couple since shit hit the fan
And i'm still here, so i'm sure i'll last a couple more
And i promise you i won't wait by the door

But in five years i'll still be here
After all the warning shots i've fired
You'll need a rest, 'cus god knows you're tired
Of taking care of me
So take some space to breathe
Take as long as you need
'Cus i believe
In five years i'll still be here

The day after my boy left me, i spent hours in bed
And I dreamed that there was an black dog barking in my head
It told me "fuck you, man, you are worse than nothing
You are a soft teddy bear with sharp metal stuffing"

The day after my friends told me not to contact them anymore
I baked chocolate chip cookies, I'd made the dough
Just for them the day before
I felt their hurt like a stabbing pain in my chest
I felt like crying but i knew i was trying my best
I felt like dying but i knew i was trying my best

How do i make sure that i get out of bed today
And how do i make sure i don't regret getting out of bed today

Well in five years i'll still be here
After all the patience i've required
You'll need a rest, cus god knows you're tired
Of taking care of me
So take some space to breathe
Take as long as you need
'Cus i believe, after all

In five years i'll still be here
After all the bullshit that's transpired
You'll need a rest, cus god knows you're tired
Of taking care of me
So take some space to breathe
Take as long as you need
'Cus i believe, after all

In five years i'll still be here when you call