Doris

Yo uh
This is the last song on the album
I just wanna say thank you to everyone who's listened so far
Been on this journey with me
This one's a song about my mum her name is Doris and uh
I just thought the last song should be about her so, enjoy it

Picture me turning three smiling happily
A young Wrecks cutting cake with the family
I had people in the back that I hardly remember
Like the ones you only text at the end of December
Picture me turning nine in the UK
Mum said when you go out put on a brave face
Cause I would run around the block with the neighbors kids
But never felt like I belonged it was a hit and miss
Picture me turning twelve coming back from school
Saw my mum in her room trynna play it cool
She had just strained her hip and she could barely move
But she would never let it show she was a soldier too
I can't tell you bout the pain months later finding out she fell on her hip in the bathroom
Ambulance, my dad rushing home from work
We would visit every week, on our way from church

Shine your light shine it bright when it gets dark
You won't ever have to know when it gets rough
You won't ever have to know when it gets rough
You won't ever have to know when it gets rough
Raise your fists hold em up when it gets tough
You won't ever have to know when it gets rough
You won't ever have to know when it gets rough
You won't ever have to know when it gets rough

And that was my mum you know what I'm saying
She worked so hard
Never knew when it was hard in the house like
She was so good to us
It's crazy

A year later, discharged from the hospital
Doing physio, things were getting pretty comfortable
She started working, driving, assertive,
Mind you she's hurting, she was never the same
But you would never see it show she had a smile on her face
I was graduating school, everything was okay
I didn't know that all that time she was struggling with pain
I really feel that all the prayers that i said were in vain
I remember going school wiping tears from her eye
She couldn't even see me off I felt the pain when she cried
I was only 15 and the future was bright
Really wish I had more time to hold her tight
Or at least have the chance just to say goodbye
Why'd my dad ever have to make that two hour drive
Just to tell me in my face that my mum didn't make it
See she fought with her heart But the cancer really ate it

Shine your light shine it bright when it gets dark
You won't ever have to know when it gets rough
You won't ever have to know when it gets rough
You won't ever have to know when it gets rough
Raise your fists hold em up when it gets tough
You won't ever have to know when it gets rough
You won't ever have to know when it gets rough
You won't ever have to know when it gets rough

I don't, I don't really understand
To this day I don't understand Why she had to go at the time that she did I was so young
And, I was fighting with everything
I was fighting myself, I was fighting God
I was fighting the people around me pushing them away and that But then
I'm beginning to understand now
There's a purpose for this
And I'm gonna find it

Bryan said that I should trust in the Lord
Why would I trust Him when all he did was a fraud
All the nights on my knees with my hands to the sky
What's the point if in the end I know she's still gonna die
What's the point if in the end we really don't make it out
What's the point if in the end they say I did it for clout
Or that I try too hard, they can't figure me out
When I stand at the top and all I see are the clouds
Which of you are gonna hear me when I scream and shout
At the top of my lungs, cause it's hard to breathe
Asthmatic but I'm still gonna roll up the weed
And that girl on her knees, she's trying hard to please
Can't love I really feel that love was taken from me
So all the girls in my life, yeah they get disrespected
Can't be proud of that, I still aim at perfection
But I'm only human turning Ls into lessons