Drowning (... Again)

Oh tell me when did it start
That's when it all comes apart
You tell me I'm obsessed and all that I got left
Is knotty pine in your heart

It's getting harder to leave
You'd have me crawl on my knees
I see you winterized behind ashen eyes
And left our love on the breeze to blow through the trees

I'll throw up my hands and I pray for the rain
And I can't remember calling your name
And I thought I'd bury you under the pain
But you push me halfway down and I'm drowning again
I'm drowning again

I needed something familiar
Something to cool down my mind
Like a window down oh in my hometown
Something simple and fine

But still you offer your hand
Lead me down river bends
You say it's safe to cross but when I'm feeling lost
Well you're gone once again slip through my hands

I'll throw up my hands and I pray for the rain
And I can't remember calling your name
And I thought I'd bury you under the pain
But you push me halfway down and I'm drowning again
I'm drowning again

Stand still now thumb raised to the sky
Don't drag me I'll carry on with time
Been living on amphetamine lies
'Till she pulls me under rising tides

I'll throw up my hands and I pray for the rain
And I can't remember calling your name
And I thought I buried you under the pain
But you rose again when I drowned in the stream and
I'm swept away on that last train leaving
As that east wind pulls back on my brain
And I know I buried you deeper than sin
But your name comes up old friend and we're drowning again
I'm drowning again