Stand At Ease

If depression was a sin
Wouldn't change it in the end
And I know it gets dark
And we're all looking for a spark
To fight the fear of feeling

You wrote me letters from the road
All those words left to unfold
Now I'm taking time
To read between the lines
And all that it's revealing

Why can't I stand at ease
While you fall asleep
I suffered when Mother said
You should not be alone
And I can't stand to see
What you've done to be free
I'll be there when you see the morning light
Now you're bound to sleep alone

I know you never crossed your heart
When you kept us worlds apart
You'd hit your knees to pray
With Fentanyl on display
And every devil showing

I know it never crossed your mind
That you'd leave your girls behind
Cause I'll cry tears to waste
And have nowhere to place
The blame that keeps on growing

Why can't I stand at ease
While you fall asleep
I suffered when Mother said
You should not be alone
And I can't stand to see
What you've done to be free
I'll be there when you see the morning light
Now you're bound to sleep alone

I still hear your voice in my head sayin'
Keep on going ya gotta keep on
I still miss your original soul sayin'
Keep on going ya gotta keep on

I still hear your voice in my head sayin'
Keep on going ya gotta keep on
I still miss that original soul sayin'
Keep on going ya gotta keep on

Keep on going

Why can't I stand at ease
While you fall asleep
I suffered when Mother said
You should not be alone
I know you didn't mean
To leave it all to me
I'll wake up just to see the morning light
But you're bound to sleep alone