Past Self

It really doesn't take too much to be awake for hours
And you'd never believe what I found searching through my house
I didn't really understand you when you said I should be over
What happened in the past 'cause they've all forgotten it now
My mind struggles to find meaning in my laughter
And my heart races when I think about it somehow

I'll run back to the house in the pouring rain
Just to understand the feeling
Of being alive and being in love
I'll run back to the park in the pouring rain
Just to understand the feeling
Of being alive and being in love

It really doesn't take that much to be stoned for hours
And you'd never believe how much time I spent last night
To decipher through all the noises and the voices in my bedroom
Only to find out I left the TV on

I'll drive back to the mall in the summer stench
Just to feel the way that I felt
When I was alive, I could feel everything
I'll drive back to the school where I thought it was cool
To let go of someone who loves you
For someone you love

You don't know shit about love in high school
And fuck that
All your shit's cool
All your shit's cool
Why would I look at you?
Why would you look at me?

I'll run back to the park in the pouring rain
Just to understand the feeling
Of being alive and having it all
I'll run back to my room in the middle of May
Just to stay this way forever
Just to stay this way forever