i know it's true/estradiol

Another night crying myself to bed
Another night swearing worn out promises
Another night wishing I was dead
But telling myself that there's so much to live for

When the things you read
Become real

And the lies you hear
Are knocking at your door

It takes just a second
To process it

But it takes ages just to feel it

You're in a hopeless situation
But you wanna see the bright side
So you'll turn on the lights
And pray for a sign
But it doesn't feel alright

You wanna think the future is better
And wrap yourself in a too big sweater
Disappear and make everyone forget you
I know it's true

Another day another fucking mental breakdown
Waking up to hate my life
Holding back trials and tribulations
Wondering why I even try to survive

Cuz when the things you read
Become real

And the lies you hear
Are knocking at your door

It takes just a second
To process it

But it takes ages just to feel it

You're in a hopeless situation
But you wanna see the bright side
So you'll turn on the lights
And pray for a sign
But it doesn't feel alright

You wanna think the future is better
And wrap yourself in a too big sweater
Disappear and make everyone forget you
I know it's true

Estradiol
Change my body
Make it who I want to be

In my image
Smooth me out
And help me see
The girl inside me

I've been stuck in this vessel for too long
Outdated
Insecure
And I can't go on
Something's gotta give and it ain't helping
That I gotta break my by back to be perceived

Estradiol
Change my body
Make it who I want to be

In my image
Smooth me out
And help me see
The girl inside me

And it's hard to believe
That you're a few weeks away
And all my dreams have led up to this day
Hopeless nights
But hopeful mornings
Healing starts today