Black Tourmaline

And I been in my head again
Oh no no don't think about it
Wake every morning
Just contemplate my head is crowded
Everybody got opinions
I think I could live without em
Black on Black like tourmaline
Please protect me from my problems
When I think that got what I want but I don't but I don't
Oh no no don't think about it
And I feel all the love but I know but I know I'm alone
Oh no no don't think about it

Dark days had a couple dark days
Overthinking yea it put me under in a hard place
In Between a rock cave but I never caved in
Give a fuck what y'all say or the crystal ball say
Nights like these my mom prayed God ain't never heard those
Who the fuck do y'all blame? I came through the dirt though
Got it out the mud yay I should get some new clothes
These ones got enough stains tell me which ones you chose, huh
Be about it don't think about it, gotta be an island just to get an island
Isolated and I'm never smiling, way above it bitch I been a pilot
Looking down on myself like, boy you better wrap your head around it
Licking all of these blunt like I can taste all of the venom on it
I'm decoded overthought it, I'm the coldest try to thaw it
Seen enough shit in my apartment tried to escape but the walls were blocked in
Ex the girlfriends, Ex the wifey, made a smaller circle but they still don't like me
I'll escape this less than likely standing on a chair with a rope tied tightly

And I been in my head again
Oh no no don't think about it
Wake every morning
Just contemplate my head is crowded
Everybody got opinions
I think I could live without em
Black on Black like tourmaline
Please protect me from my problems
When I think that got what I want but I don't but I don't
Oh no no don't think about it
And I feel all the love but I know but I know I'm alone
Oh no no don't think about it

I got a gun beside my bed yea, put it to my head
Think about it too much I'd be less a burden then
I'd be less a burden dead what a lil birdie said
Hard to see me in a coffin but I dream about it yea
I don't wanna die, but wanna leave this world behind
Think if I eliminate myself the team would be just fine
Fuck I'm talkin bout a team, it's just me myself and I
So if I ain't here no longer then nobody split the pie
Better give it all to momma she the one that got me by
Just for dealing with my drama you get extras on the side
But I'm feeling all alone ain't nobody down to ride
Even to the corner store, let alone the other side
God damn Helter Skelter chaos all up in my mind
I've been so obsessed with L's all of my Wins ain't got no I's
And it's really no surprise that's just how the chicken fries
I been going stir crazy I should probably go outside

And I been in my head again
Oh no no don't think about it
Wake every morning
Just contemplate my head is crowded
Everybody got opinions
I think I could live without em
Black on Black like tourmaline
Please protect me from my problems
When I think that got what I want but I don't but I don't
Oh no no don't think about it
And I feel all the love but I know but I know I'm alone
Oh no no don't think about it