Self Control

It seems that I've lost myself along the way
I gouged out my eyes and threw them away
Dear God hear me now just send me home
My time is up I've lost my self-control

This empty glass is filling up with lies
All the bullshit I pushed back in my mind
Choke it down
Just threw up some blood but it'll wash down fine
I can't see clearly through altered lines clouding out my eyes
Crushing and rolling pouring out tryna numb the painted mind
Everything's breathing and screaming around that it's time to die
No hope for feeling maybe these voices are getting it right
Subjective thinking I search for my meaning
Inside this bottle I'll smoke out my sorrow

It seems that I lost myself along the way
I gouged out my eyes and threw them away
I couldn't stand to see all the pain inflicted from all the choices that I made
Contemplate losing all that I have known
Just ease all this pain I can't let go
Dear God hear me now just send me home
My time is up I've lost my self-control

Take another sip another hit another pill
Yeah they numb the pain but they can't heal the void you feel
When it's dark and you're awake in your house all alone
You'll take another and you'll lose your fucking self-control
The voices in my head
Are telling me that my body's broken
I bury my mind instead
Inside a broken bottle six feet down below
Where the fuck
Is there some peace inside of this hopeless dying world?
I give up
I can't stand it anymore I'll take all of these
Tortured visions
Nihilism
Tortured visions
That make my head blood red
I will shatter all my dreams
And leave it there on the concrete
An empty soul remains
But the headspace always
Until you see my blood-stained face
You'll never understand why I tried to leave this place

So here I am
Right back at it again
Still stuck on this hell on earth I created
There's no one else to blame
Nothing can keep me sane
Violet veins keep me sated



Credits
Writer(s): Christopher Lance Jr Jones
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