A Ransom

The hardest part is when
All the feelings come
Next to knowing it will end soon
I don't know which is worse
The now or not yet
When I imagine life without you

I spent the last few months
Trying to heal from you
Strange this should bear it's teeth
I spent the last few years just
Trying to calm myself enough
To address this part of me

Be careful what you wish for
It's better not to know
A gift is just as much a curse
The more that it grows

And then the anger always comes
When I don't understand
That's why I've lined my ducks
Since the day this all began

Of everything we've had
I miss the moments in between
Those memories remain with me

But why did you waste so many good years?
Can't you see the damage you've left here?

I hope you know I could not love you more
Like a wave that never reaches shore
It's unrelenting
Unrelenting
Unrelenting
Unrelenting
Unrelenting
As you go...