Fall Back Down

Standin' on the edge of a cliff again
Can't remember how I got here
But it's too late to pretend
That this wasn't my fault
Why do I always have to give in?
Followin' a broken compass
Like a moth flyin' to a flame
I can't do this no more

'Cause all I want, all I want is to be fine
Without having to go back
I'm sorry that I left you behind
How could I be so selfish?
I needed to feel a little better
I guess that I caved under pressure
But all I want, all I want is to be fine
Without having to fall back down
(Without having to fall back down)

I don't even know how to tell ya
'Cause I'm not exactly proud of my actions
I just thought I'd be cured by now
You shouldn't have to see me like this
When I break off another piece of myself
But what else can I do?

If all I want, all I want is to be fine
Without having to go back
I'm sorry that I left you behind
How could I be so selfish?
I needed to feel a little better
I guess that I caved under pressure
But all I want, all I want is to be fine
Without having to fall back down
Without having to fall back down
(Without having to fall back down)

I'm on the verge of breakin' down
But I'm too far gone, now
I gotta ride it out
So I'll take another sip of cyanide
To see if, maybe, for once
The world can be on my side
I'm sick of fighting with myself
Tired of dragging me through hell
Just to feel
A little bit alive
And I have learned there's no such thing
As pleasure without pain
So, here I'm trying once again
To safely come back down

All I want, all I want is to be fine
Without having to fall back down
I'm sorry that I left you behind
How could I be so selfish?
I needed to feel a little better
I guess that I caved under pressure
But all I want, all I want is to be fine
Without having to fall back down
Without having to fall back down
All I want is to fall back down