i wish that i could wear hats

I wish that I could wear hats
Without looking like a little lad
Or looking like a little league dad
Or looking like a guy named Chad

But it seems my head will have to stay without a bowler or beret
Lest someone sees me and they say
"Is that his style or bad cosplay?"
I wish I had no fears
About looking like I have no ears
Or that I haven't left my house years
Or I have strong opinions about beers
Or looking like I got confused
In the middle of dressing for a steampunk con

Or looking like I look too long in the mirror
Every time I put a new hat on
Wondering why do I look so bad or not bad
But sad that this hat won't look like I had
A plan for this cap to capitalise
On how my face looks
My body this size

My eyes on my skull
This hat on my hair
The eyes that look at the things that I wear
And how does it look, and how do I look
And how can I look how I look and not care

Comparing myself with others much closer
To their own goals of some sort of closure
How do they do what they want and look planned
I come to you now, my hat in my hand
I wish that I could wear hats without sparking something to recall
I wish that I could wear hats without looking any way at all
(Wears hats, wears hats, wears hats...)