Tetris

I play tetris with my eyes
Walking down the street after leaving your house
Where I slept in your bed
But just to fend the nightmares off

Sometimes I'm afraid to look you in the eyes
'Cause i know I could fall too deep into what I find
And sometimes I don't say what I really mean
'Cause it might melt you and I know you're scared of water

But me, I've been drowning for years
Or is that what it's called still when I've been under long enough to grow gills
Wish you would let me teach you how to swim
Wish you would stop worrying about the wind

I can never really tell if I'm pulling too hard or treading too fast
I'm picking flowers and making a list of ways to help you when you're sad
Now I'm smoking in a bubble bath, thinking about what Rachel said
And I've come to the conclusion that living in limbo is okay
As long as you're still the one calling my name

See, the logic I've been standing on my whole life is collapsing beneath
But this part somehow seems concrete
Stabilizing, ethereal; simultaneously

And I know the stars are looking out for me
And that things will work out how they're meant to be
But despite everything there's something in my bones
Telling me that this is something worth fighting for

And I'm scared too, but I'm taking up arms
I'm certainly not a soldier but for you I'd start a war
'Cause you're all I've been wordlessly searching for
If you weren't who I think you are, I wouldn't think to try

Because I'm tired too, like i know you are
From staying here up all night
But I'd give all of my good dreams up
Just to lay awake by your side

And you have your own shuffled suits in hand
And you're certainly not one to bleed
So Ican't tell you what move to make
But I think you'd be a fool not to come with me

And I know you don't want me to wait for you
But I'm still gonna look for your name first anyway
When I check to see who saw my story
And for your face in the traffic on Neil Avenue