Unholy War

I think I never really wanted to die
It's too hard, too easy, I got too much pride
More importantly it's a few who need me alive
You want to Stay, every fucking day you have to decide
Tell me what you see looking into my eyes
Bout the same shade as what we used to call sky
I'm just fighting

My innocence miscarried, always understood hate
And porn got my ass by the tender age of eight
Took ten years for me to get my fucking head straight
Ex girlfriend had scars from holding the weight
Last girl I laid with had burn marks on her skin
I warned her, leave Maryland, don't let the cycle spin
So much potential and she gon fucking die in Towson
Fuck

We all soldiers in the same war
That's why Good Will Hunting hurts so much more since 2004
Teen bout when my mom got cancer
Shit raised questions I don't even want to answer
War with every doubt that you could possibly conceive
Silent screams through the screen watching World War Three
27 my birthday, I hope not my death year
The grim reaper creeping, I can hear him but I'm still here
And a ways from my magnum Opus
Like to stick around to write it, least that's what the hope is
Been given everything but thumb my nose in God's face
And yes, I would have it almost any other way
But this is my path, and I'm too scared to stray
I won't ask you to stay, I'm only chasing my grave
Solipsism the worst fate, you better off dead
But I can't help showing you the worst side of my head