Star

I lay awake at night again in my mind
All i do is sit here and count pass the time
Sometimes i try to rewrite all of my rhymes
But i always come back to another thought of you
And another thought of who
You could have been if you weren't torn in two
And another memory that plagues me
And kills me through and through
And i'm slowly losing sight of what i believe is true
Maybe one day something can fly by
And help me change my point of view yeah.

Everything i know is basic
And everytime i see you i just think of empty faces
And i know ill never heal by breaking all of these vases
In this empty room
Where i can still feel traces
Of your life so empty and breathless

And yeah i'm helpless
Trapped in my own mess
And i think its time to confess
That all my words were useless
So why continue to do this
When everything i knew was
Nothing but a lie
And i cant keep lying to myself

Everyday so i just sit here until all of the time just drifts away
And maybe i can think of a way to try and save
Everything i've been trying to say
While i watch the cosmos slowly drift away
Day by day
Out of the frame
Until i can no longer hear your screams
Inside of my brain
That are perpetually driving me fucking insane
Its not the same
Its never the same
Whenever i tear inside
And rip away all of this pain

And i'm having these feelings inside me
That i haven't felt in awhile its terrifying
All these demons that i'm tired of fighting
Is it death of my soul that you are implying
Am i dying
I may sit in my room always crying
Getting closer to the edge of eternal flying
And i swear to everything i love that i'm fucking trying
And i wish you didn't think that i was lying
Darling

And i am falling
Just fucking falling
And every time i hear you
You're always calling
For me to wake up
And stop myself from clawing
At these memories of you
That i'm constantly recalling

And i'm drawing
A blank in my mind
and everytime i fucking think of you
My brain just goes blind
And every single dream i have of you
Just feels so sublime
And everything i ever think about's
A waste of my time yeah

It's all just running to a point in my life
Until i can no longer stand
With my back to the knife
To the moment i am a man
Who can not conquer strife
To the moment that all my plans will no longer seem right
To the moment that i completely give up on this fight
And to the moment when my life loses all of its light
And to this moment
This single moment
This breath i take is foolish
This single breath i blew was
Everything i knew and

This single feelings new and
Every feelings blue with
Another side of you
Can't i have a life with few ends
That's always fucking loose i
Just have no fucking clue when
I'll put it all together
This life is iron tethers
That keep me trapped forever
No matter what i go through
I'll always think about you
Until the sun burns out too
And well burn out together
This brain has awful weather
Your memories a feather
But ill forget you never