Lucky One

I feel wrong inside
The right has slipped away and I've been
Left behind
Please tell me how you really feel
It wouldn't hurt me even if I tried

I long for greener fields
But I've seen each side and both are blue
I used to be so brave
Now I'm afraid
Curiosity turned cruel

I know that I'm a lucky one
Of that I'm well aware
But god put the world in my twisted hands
And left it there

I can feel it fade away
All of my worries left in yesterday
All the flowers and the stones
I can see surrounding those who weren't meant to last a lifetime

I know that I'm a lucky one
Of that I'm well aware
But time has led me to darkness
And left me there
And you will never know
So you will never care

Will you love me for the night?
Any longer and I'm terrified
But we can make a memory
That won't leave me haunted
A mistake I wanted

I know that I'm a lucky one
Of that I'm well aware
But fear grew roots in my bleeding heart
And left them there