i keep jumping off of bridges

I could afford the lack of goodbye
I could afford the cheap seat at the back of the plane
I could afford the cab fair into the city
I could bear the concerned looks
The weights sewn into my pockets
The blazing sun
T have weight enough to jump
To fall
To sink
And never be seen again

And I called you for what I thought was the last time
And when you said you loved me god, I swear I almost cried
And I can hear you screaming, see your shadow in the halls
I'm terrified to sink, but I'd do anything to fall

And i keep jumping off of bridges in my dreams
Your shadow follows me everywhere, you rip me at the seams
And I've been writing letters that I hope you never read
But maybe one day you'll come back and I can get some sleep
And I'll keep jumping off of bridges til the water's like your arms
Too safe to come back to, but there's comfort in the dark

And i called you to hear your voice, I love the sound
I wanna say I love you but, god i swear I don't know how
And i fell down again I know exactly what you want
Cuts right through my skin I know you love to see my blood
Take some time out, I thought you were everything I'm not
Love I'm sorry, you thought I was pretty but I'm not
And I, I've been holding your heart while you've been breaking apart mine
The whole time, I know it's not what you want but I just wish that you were mine

And i called you for what i thought was the last time
And when you said you loved me, god, I swear I almost cried