Optimism (as a Radical Life Choice) - Etc Version

The pain is back in my chest again
Holdin' me down like a high school friend
Says, "The worlds about to end, you best start swimming"
You said, "Anxiety's the theme of all our lives these days"
Can't even have my coffee without exploiting someone
Or makin' another millionaire, or billionaire
What would it take to be happy?
I'd probably start with their money

But it's the clear backpacks, it's the two new fire exits
I'm buyin' a beer
Don't wanna think of where I'm runnin' if another asshole takes a shot
It's the city burning down while I stared at dirty pics you sent me
And I'm hiding in the desert, but I taste the ocean in my snot
Just tryin' to find my footing
I know you're sick of looking

Don't take me out back and shoot me
I know my circuits are faulty
I've only ever been a kid pointing out dead dogs on the road
Take me down in a landslide
Help me weather this high tide
I'll wear you out waiting for me to implode
Don't take me out back and shoot me

But I'm done dyin' on the inside
Now that everything is dying outside
The sky is letting go
Of holding on like a crying child
Armageddon's on my mind
I'll try to smile all the time
Like hell's a construct that I need
To make amends or keep myself clean
And yes, I'm aware it's fleeting

Don't take me out back and shoot me
I know my circuits are faulty
I've only ever been a kid pointing out dead dogs on the road
Take me down in a landslide
Help me weather this high tide
I'll wear you out waiting for me to implode

Because the ocean's gonna rise
The river's finally gonna overflow
And leave us stranded
Tryin' to make it to the other side
But there's a crack in my lifeboat
And now I'm sinking
I'm sinkin', would you sink with me?

Don't take me out back and shoot me
I know my circuits are faulty
I've only ever been a kid pointing out dead dogs on the road
Take me down in a landslide
Help me weather this high tide
I'll wear you out waiting for me to implode
But don't take me out back and shoot me