This One's For Me

One of these moments I stay stuck in
Silent on the phone, on the floor crying
Cause I had a B in math and C in phys ed
You were yelling for hours I'm a liar cuz I didn't tell

Sometimes I still collapse to the floor
When i'm overwhelmed
Can't leave the words behind
That I'm an asshole and I just don't care about you

And you don't get a word i say
You know I never expected you to relate
This one's for me, to set me free
From all these years of pressure and anxiety
I'll never be what you signed up for
So now I'm locking up the door
And I don't wanna hear about you anymore
As I said before, it's too late to try
This is goodbye

Another one I still remember
We were having fun, playing soccer
It wasn't the first or the last time
You would look at me and laugh
And tell me I kick like a fag
It's sad to think the only time i ever saw you cry
Was when i told you I was bi

And you don't get a word i say
You know i never expected you to relate
This one's for me, to set me free
From all these years of pressure and anxiety
I'll never be what you signed up for
So now I'm locking up the door
And I don't wanna hear about you anymore
As I said before, it's too late to try
This is goodbye

I never thought I'd feel this way again
A year away I thought would heal me
And yet I'm more capable than I've ever been
Or would ever be if I let you in
My life again

And you don't get a word i say
You know i never expected you to relate
This one's for me, to set me free
From all these years of pressure and anxiety
I'll never be what you signed up for
So now I'm locking up the door
And I don't wanna hear about you anymore
As I said before, it's too late to try
This is goodbye