Ghost and Rae

I don't take many pictures
Pictures paint a Thousand words
And I'm a man of very few
Unless I write a verse
I step outside my comfort zone
And try to love a little
And I'm reminded of why I like to leave people first
Cos I don't like to feel Left and useless
Coming like a shark that's toothless
I been on some bad behaviour recently
Sleeping round
And putting work off
That ain't me
I'm just down and I need some company
I done you wrong but ain't mean no malice
Said we were brothers
But never called me when you was siping from the chalice
It's ok though
Lost mum and still I manage
To keep afloat
I just sacrifice emotional damage
So I'm nonchalant
Do what I do and keep my head down
I don't care if you're happy
I ain't the class clown

In a cycle of self pity
Rolling through the city
Wondering if LDN will ever fuck with me
Put this group shit to side
Feel like career suicide
Look in my eyes
See a face of a tired man
Work my arse off
And I barely see a grand
Full of intricate raps that you'll never understand
Got them spiritual raps
But feel the spiritual attack
From a force I can't see but feel
Shit gets real
The only words they have for your boy is heal
So many open wounds life seems to dig at
So my heart cold
Living in the moment
Cause my time frozen
Seen a slab of concrete
But know that I'm golden
When granny whispered in my ear and said that I'm chosen
I knew in that moment the world was mine
Gotta trust in these rhymes
But it's easier said than done
When anytime you step out
Life sees you as a pun
Everybody wants beats but never ask about my mental
See my existence as a rental
Over a million streams on the shit that I made
But still the industry don't put respect on my name
I'm a lone wolf
But definitely carry this pain
If you knew half the shit I did
You wouldn't look at me the same
I feel unloved
But feel untouchable
The dream feels so far away
But it's still clutch-able
Shit!