Higher With You

Another Friday night and I can't breathe
Left the house, already shaking
Hate to have to prove my worth
Every week to the ones that I've known the longest

Zero confidence in the fake laugh
No sincerity in the well-wish
Ignoring all the warnings in my mourning
While I'm dealing with the pain
Of being sold out for attention

Later at a bar and I'm lonely
Sitting with some friends that don't know me
Talking to each other 'bout the weather
Never knowing the whole time
How inside a storm was brewing

Tried to speak up, but it scared them
I held it all in like a proud man
Eating all my feelings and I'm reeling
While I'm dealing with
The crushing weight of decades of depression

Take me when you go
Cause I wanna leave this place
So sick of feeling low
And I wanna get higher with you

Another Saturday and I can't leave
A house party where nobody knows me
If they do, they don't care
But they nod all the same
Just to hedge bets and come off as cordial

She doesn't even like who we're here for
But they took a picture in a phone booth
Keeping up appearances, I fear that this
Is worsening the gap between our fact and fiction

Like a drink in the middle of a desert
Or a breath when trapped under the ocean
I just want someone who can hear me when I say
I need help or to heal me when I'm hurting

Just a push and I'm up and I'm running
Just a word and I'll always be calling
Help me while I mend
And while I fend off
A whole decade being kneecapped
Headed in the wrong direction

Take me when you go
Cause I wanna leave this place
So sick of feeling low
And I wanna get higher with you

We watched ourselves become
Something we'd never guess
We felt too hard, or at least we're told
And they're not impressed

We ate each other up so much
All that's left was down
Our ship had sunk
So you rode the doorframe while I drowned

What if lose it
What if we slip and what if we slide
Cause we're not our parents
It's a difference of time and a difference of lives
And the view here is perfect
The wind in your hair and the sound of your laugh
I don't deserve it
I don't care what I've done
It's never enough



Credits
Writer(s): Adam Mccabe
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