I Remember

It's a lot of shit that I been Through as a child
You don't forget it, you can't Forget that pain

I remember all those nights
I was feeling abandonment
I remember all the lessons I was taught
Living at my granny crib
I remember thinking life was good
Until I seen how bad we lived
Back to back
That pain was back to back
I ain't know how to feel
I was numb to the pain
But I think about it still
It was plenty days
I felt love was strange
I ain't know how it killed
I ain't know how you could show Love Then turn around and hate me still You was filling Up With the drugs And I was just the only kid
Forgiveness I need forgiveness from the heart The lords my witnessHe saw every Moment from the Start We gotta mend this
We gotta fix our every problem
Cause no matter what we say
We only remember what we saw

I was locked out in the rain, with Stains
I had stains from my scars
I wasn't a bad child, I made bad Decisions
And was still a scholar
At 16 I was Runnin round With the robbers
The judge labeled me a follower
And I still turned out to be a star
Don't you wanna see a star shining
My life was extra dark
Most of my days was full of Darkness I always had this spark
I was running off of faith
I Wish I had a extra heart
I wish you showed me extra love
So I wouldnt love as hard

I remember All the pain that the Struggle Brought me
I remember All the ways that they tried to Cross me I remember The Way I felt lookin at Your coffin
Do you know how that feel
When you lose at every bargain
Do you know how I feel
Losing every part of me
Do you know that I still
Love with every part of me
And I'll kill For those who try to bother me That pain like adlibs
The way it always follow me
I wonder if I resort back to Robbing Would I still get a thrill
I was in the streets like hot wheels
I ain't know how to chill
I was staring cases in they faces
I ain't have no uncle Phil
But I took them pounds out my Uncle Bells I was always smoking weed I was scared to Pop a pill
Could've been in the league
I could throw a shot from any Where But instead I was dodging shots Cause I was in the Field
I hate that scraping from the pots
It always hurt my ears

But I remember all the pain that The struggle brought me and I Remember all the ways That they Tried to cross me
I remember, how it felt looking at Your coffin Do you know how that feel? Losing every Part of me
Forgiveness I need forgiveness from the heart The lords my Witness he saw every Moment From the start we gotta Mend this, We gotta fix our every Problem Cause no Matter what we Say we Only remember what we Saw and I remember