Sideways

I remember going sideways I remember going down
Searching for a something that'd tie me to the ground
I'd give up any thrill for less of the spills
Of composure of the way it used to be
Wondering what became of me

It started when I listened to what others had to say
But only in catchphrases and snippets far away
I wasn't reaching out and I wasn't reaching in
As the tears flowed from eye to cheek to chin
Wondering where I'd ever begin

Looking in the mirror didn't recognize that face
More than tired lines identity displaced
A wild unfamiliar look in her eyes
Wondering when she can take off the disguise
Knowing what her heart would reply

I can feel it beating in there safe and warm
Yes I have a heart and I'll tell you what it's for
To sense what's going on to reach out for a cause
Love myself not put my life on pause
Even when I'm scared and lost

So can we hold the mothers like we hold the babes
Allow them to be still and allow them to change
To give the gift of time and give the gift of rest
Because life's not meant to be a test
It's a chance to show the hearts in our chest