A PROMISE KEPT

Damn, here we are again
I see it's only been a year and you seem far again
The only difference is now that you seem more alone
With all those missed texts and calls on your phone
And you ain't write this in the rain, it was sunshine
This is not for metaphors, ain't no punchlines
So, let's talk about what changed & what's on ya mental
And speak on all of those thoughts that seem so detrimental
I'm tired of being the strong friend when I need saving the most
I play it off cool, yeah, like most of it's jokes
And I got family all around me, but I rarely choose to speak
Cause they don't hold the world or have chains on their feet
And my friends are my friends, but some don't know me well
And for ones that still call just know I wish you well
I'm been dealing with it often
I hate doing the talking
I let my demons walk in
I'm just tryna ignore my problems
But, they rolling the hill like a snowball effect
And I only feel like dying 'cause I feel my time is next
And I compare my life to others and miss out on all my blessings
And I don't talk God, but I got so many damn questions
And I don't complain as much 'cause I know someone got it worse
And somehow through it all, I managed just to make it work
But, the truth is, I'm tired of this madness in my head
I feel like I'm just better being off dead
I'm obsessed with helping others when I rarely get it
And, I show hella love & I don't ever get it
And, I overthink too much & it's way too much emotions
I let a good woman go for me, and for me, she was potent
Happy moments made me scared & I pushed her away
When rightfully so, I didn't wanna cause that pain
It's like a glimpse of happiness makes me so skeptical
Ight, this here is your mental and I got a message, bro
You better pick yourself, you got all reasons to quit
But a nigga standing, you gotta purpose to live
You got potential God sees, so, don't you ever doubt it
You always kept the peace when all your enemies had seem the loudest
And you think you got it tough, you should see what's ahead
You got team of believers that wanna see you win instead
The music is just the start, your presence is causes change
Your words bring encouragement, use them to win the game
Make things right with that queen, give her love that she deserves
Don't give her no reasons just to make these niggas lurk
And if she's truly a blessing, then, you should tell her first
And if you gon get her back, have your actions meet your words
You ain't late to the feast, you just setting the table
Pray up on them brothers who turned they backs like Cain & Abel
Be the truth to your brothers, be your sisters' rock
'Specially when things get tough, 'cause it's a journey to tha top
Look, I know that I can do this, I'm just struggling heavy
Satan's at my doorstep, that nigga been tryna test me
He might sneak through cracks & beat me until I'm red
But, don't succumb his wishes & feed your flesh
I'm just speaking to myself, this right here is for me
And, I'm being selfish with it & I'll do it with ease
God gon help you out, so please just come as you are
Listen close, enter as you, but don't stay as your are
Make change, become who you was meant to be
And always show love, but, watch how you speak
Take care of your health and prioritize better
Double check every move you make & move clever
Treat the shawty like a queen and nothing less
Move accordingly even if it is with one step
Make sure you take them by surprise, take no disrespect
And then you gon see this was a promise kept
Bet

Ight, so boom, check this out right