Foundation

I'm building a foundation, foundation
Somewhere I can rest
When I just need a break
If I need motivation, vation
Guess I can try bend my knees and pray
Nothing left to prove (prove)
What do I even need to say
I have seen the darkness, now I see the day
I'm building a foundation, hopefully it's safe

I speak through the wire
I live by example I seek to inspire
I'm keeping the fire too stoked
I'm still on my knees looking higher
I seek the Messiah, when I feel like trying to cope
Pain, I was seeking it out, reeking of doubt
Deep in my doubts, see, I was trying to float
All the time I devote
They need a reminder that I am the goat

I don't know where this came from, my arrogance
Stacking up some cheddar for family's inheritance
Still battle demons, and dodging the evil nefarious
I need of sign, but I'm not feeling Aquarius
Building something that only I can see like I'm Phineas
And Ferb
Kicked to pavement, teeth hit the curb
But I kept head down man, peeped and observed
Getting mine where the pressure and the heat would occur
I would a seek in mirror for advice
Many weeks I would reach for my vice
I kept a hidden like a thief in the night
I'd never listen to teaching's of Christ
I would sleep in the lessons they would teach in the night
And the days would be bleak and despite
All that, many times, long grinds to fall flat
Fell deep took time crawl back

I'm building a foundation, foundation
Somewhere I can rest
When I just need a break
If I need motivation, vation
Guess I can try bend my knees and pray
Nothing left to prove (prove)
What do I even need to say
I have seen the darkness, now I see the day
I'm building a foundation, hopefully it's safe

(hopefully it's safe)

I'm building a foundation
All the concrete I lay
If I need I some motivation
Fall on my knees and pray
Couldn't stomach the pain, couldn't stomach the pain
I was 16, had full time study at NAIT,
Late work till 3, bible study at 6
Class I would fall asleep, I was running away
From a version of me, one that I would miss
Too much anxiety that I had bottled away
6:30 studying Matthew, 8 am X-ray tube is a vacuum
10,11 learn all the rules to the lab, food you would grab
Then it's hurry up and eat, we'll be back soon
Then about 12, you learn about chemistry, clinical
Then you learn about bones, individual
By the time I was done out 4, I had work till the morn
These conditions are not livable
Had professors stay concerned for my health
Man they didn't know the burden I felt
Should have gone to therapy, had no money, time or energy
It would have certainly helped
If I' was 'bout thirty, I would have certainly dealt with it better
I had just got my license
Sure, being more mature
It would have occurred to me that I'm hurting in this crisis
I'm sorry teacher, I'm not like this
Open more of the textbook, I know you right miss
I can't decide what to prioritize
Either the bible or sinusitis
I was trying to fight to this
Tried to switch the climate
So so so, so so so tired
Bags under the eyes, bags under the eyes
Times I couldn't recognize my own likeness

Some nights I thought I was a flight risk
You need to leave, how do I time this
I am honestly was done
Done sacrificing
Who have I become, I don't even like him

Some nights I thought that I was a flight risk
You need to leave, how do I time this
I am honestly was done
Done sacrificing
Who have I become, I don't even, I don't even