emulate

Sometimes I think I'm getting better
But it changes like the threads hangin' off my sweater
And when I feel you
Were runnin' on the beach
You're holdin' on to me

My skeleton lays heavy
Every part of me prays I'm just asleep
And in the morning
You'll be next to me

I'm not the same, I'm not the same
My name will never change
I'll never wear a ring
When I think of looking somewhere else
I'd rather dance by myself

I'm not allowed to show up at your door
And when I saw what was our home
Only your shoes
Our empty room
A ghost of what I used to know

Was I not enough
To emulate your drugs
Do I ever cross your mind
Or am I working over time
All the time

So I write it in a letter
I send it off to me and hope it takes forever to come

I miss your momma so much I see pictures of us
The games I play at night, torturous
But the more I refrain the longer the pain
I guess you took the shortcut

Was I not enough
To emulate your drugs
Do I ever cross your mind
Or am I working over time

Was I not enough
To emulate your drugs
Do I ever cross your mind