Restless

I'm alone in my zone yeah I'm lost in my thoughts
All by myself in this road there's nobody I can trust
Yeah I Don't run from opsticals I put myself in the front
Don't come back if you leave please make the bridges burn
Even if I hit the bottom I don't plan to stay down
I got my loved ones praying for me to hit the ground
Getting anxiety attacks how the hell I stay calm
No peace when you fighting and arguing daily with your own step mom

I stay strong
My biggest opp is my brain
Don't wanna fight myself daily overthinking got me going insane
Life is a mess
So I write to numb my pain
Soon as I lit a fire for the darkness
God makes it Rain

Wanna live the way I want don't wanna live like a Pawn
Back in the day we used to struggle hard it was me and my mom
Mom and dad separated when I was just like 1
I wanna see em together one time god that's all I want

Yeah it hurts I can't even pretend
I used to live with my mother was struggling to pay the rent
She used to work all day but never comprised
Her smiles value multiples
By 100 when you've seen her cry a hundred times

Yeah I know my life's been a wastage
Living life but death is my apprentice
Do or die soo fuck it imma take it
Never wanna stop the pain made me
Restless

The pain made me restless man I wanna stop
But then I wonder do I have what it takes to get to the top
Negative thoughts
On my mind breaking my will to dust
Too many fake in the world it's hard for me too adjust

Yeahh I was smoking them cigrettes when I was just in the 3rd grade
Not cause I enjoyed it cause my mind needed a first aid
In those days I was going through it
Others were going to school while I was going through shit

No matter much I try could never leave my past in the back
The time when I pretended to be the funniest guy in the class
But the truth is that I was never funny I was just sad
Didn't want anyone knowing so I used to put on the funny act

Yeah I know my life's been a wastage
Living life but death is my apprentice
Do or die soo fuck it imma take it
Never wanna stop the pain made me
Restless



Credits
Writer(s): Sahil Subba
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