It's My Fault?

(It's my fault)

I got a complicated bloodstream
Filled with different compounds
I hoped it was a bad dream
I'm sitting here like, "What now?"
I wanted something that was better than this
She wrapped my last year up and sealed it tight with a kiss of death

Now I'm sitting here stressing with my withdrawals
From having someone give a shit, but it's all good
Like an addict sitting, scratching 'til their skin crawls
I just need somebody here for good

Oh, my white blood cells
Won't nurse me back to health
Oh my! Who do I call?
I watch my dead self
As he's crawling out of hell
Oh my! What a bad fall that was

Sometime you could've given me a break
I carried you, you were dead weight, now it's my fault
Tell me how that works out
I was your fire, so you're angry that I burnt out? Damn
Sat there spitting water on the flames
Tell me who's sitting with the blame now that it's out cold
Puddling with moisture
Tell me what happened to the girl I knew before your reign

Take it all back
Tell me what happened
Heart turned black
Love is my has-been
All washed up
But what am I mourning?
Singing my nights and sleeping my mornings

I filled my cup with all the problems I don't care to think of
I poured a half a '26 and then I put my drink up
I let it marinate my stomach 'til I spit the drink up
On the floorboards, and then I had to top up my cup like

What's this upon my mind still?
I'm forcing loneliness so I can write a rhyme
Will I ever let myself be happy? Maybe I will
Or I'll just keep on sabotaging every fine kill

Then there's her
Who cut me deeper than a fucking knife
She taught me trust and then she didn't take her own advice
She fooled me once, she fooled me twice, she fooled a bunch of times
I ain't the only one she got, she fooled a bunch of guys

Sometime you could have given me a break
I carried you, you were dead weight, now it's my fault
Tell me how that works out
I was your fire so you're angry that I burnt out? Damn
Sat there spitting water on the flames
Tell me who's sitting with the blame now that it's out cold
Puddling with moisture
Tell me what happened to the girl I knew before your reign

Take it all back
Tell me what happened
Heart turned black
Love is my has been
All washed up
But what am I mourning?
Singing my nights and sleeping my mornings