If You Let Me

I'm lying in your bed
My back against your chest
And I'm not really sure how I should feel
You said I shouldn't drive
And to just crash here for the night
"It doesn't have to be this whole big deal"

My map's still hanging there
On your wall, above the chair
It's full of places that we haven't been
And the fairy lights I strung
Still twinkle one by one
A memory of January, feels like way back then

Now you're holding me again
And I remember when
I swore that things would always be that easy
Now we're hurt and it's a mess
But my back's against your chest
And you're sleeping, so I'll be here
If you let me

I listen to you breathe
In and out, it's like the sea
And this feeling hits me like a tidal wave
Involuntarily
It's muscle memory
But I'm slowly learning how to be okay

Is it way too much to ask
That we let go of the past
And leave all of that drama far behind?
Though I know it's no less real
And I know we both need to heal
I'm hoping that in time that we can be like way back then

Now you're holding me again
And I remember when
I swore that things would always be that easy
Now we're hurt and it's a mess
But my back's against your chest
And you're sleeping, so I'll be here

I quiet all my thoughts
There's no use in getting caught
In the tangled mess that's looming in my head
Who knows what the future holds
So for now, I cuddle close
And do my best to try and match your breaths

And take it in
'Cause you're holding me again
And I remember when
I swore that things would always be that easy
Now we're hurt, but we'll be fine
I've got your back, and you've got mine
And you're sleeping, so I'll be here
If you let me

Yeah, you're sleeping, so I'll be here