Wish That I Were Dead

Rushing through my head
And I wish that I was dead, I say
Where do I go again, where do I go again
Rushing through my head
And I wish that I was dead, I say
Where do I go again, where do I go again (Yeah)

All I see is darkness like it's always 3:05
Blowing speakers on the interstate to drown out what's inside
I don't want you tryna fix me, you don't know me by design
Suicidal since I'm 15, how the fuck did I survive
I got broken thoughts, can't hold a job
Broke up, found out she's a thot
Smoking and I'm taking shots
Addictive like I play the slots
No-one pull up to my spot
I'm alone but it's what I want
Heart a safe that I keep locked
What's love, cause I forgot
What if I finally pulled the trigger
Probably do that shit if I could stand the taste of liquor
Killing off my innocence, I couldn't do it quicker
If I could be different, I bet I would still be with her
All I see is people tryna leave me cause I'm broken
I got too much pride to say I hate that I'm with no one
Tryna find connection with some bitch who doesn't know me
Only did that shit cause I've been sick of being lonely

Rushing through my head, head
Wish that I was dead, wish wish
Blowing speakers on the interstate to drown out what's inside
All I see is darkness like it's always 3:05
I don't want you tryna fix me, you don't know me by design

She back in my life, but by the time that I drop this
I bet she gon' be gone, and there's no way I could stop it
I got so many patterns and all that shit, it ain't conscious
So it's me myself and I and I don't think no one wants us
Shit I got so many flaws and they outweigh all my perks
Sunday say you love me, Monday I'm a jerk
Tuesday I'm dissociated, Wednesday popping percs
End the week defeated, I can't make it on this Earth

And the demons come around the holidays
I'm tryna be the strong one, yeah
But this winters been a long one, yeah
I picked a road I picked the wrong one
Driving til I crash, dreaming I got cash
I know it won't fix me cause I'm broken like it's glass
Nowhere else to go when all I know is in my head
Fuck it, I don't want this and I wish that I were dead

Rushing through my head, head
Wish that I was dead, wish wish
Where do I go again, where do I go again
Rushing through my head, head
Wish that I was dead, wish wish
Where do I go again, where do I go again