the untitled song of a 16 year old boy

Let me sleep a little longer
Maybe this will pass by
And I can hide under the bedsheets and cover-ups
And sweet little lies that I tell myself
So I can stay away from having to move
Having to change

'Cause my grades won't get better
And it will only feel better if
All of this and all of you
Will leave me to myself

So I can just take some time to find myself
Or what remains from
The trash heap of nice words
And tired encouragement
To make me feel better
'Cause I haven't felt my best in a long time

Let me sleep a little longer
I can't face the day
When it feels each step I take
Is like a step towards my grave
And I can't stand to hurt you
So I'll lie here instead
Safe in my apathy
Safe in my bed

I don't want to stay here
But I'm too weak alone
I only want some peace of mind
A little time on my own

So I can just have some space to find myself
Or what remains from
The trash heap of nice words
And tired encouragement
To make me feel better
'Cause I haven't felt my best in a long time

I'm working through the pain
To heal who remains from
The fallout before this
Took over my self-worth
I hope I feel better
'Cause I haven't felt my best in a long time