Suadade

Liquor got
Me twisted
And I'm feeling
Sentimental

Tell myself
Forget the past
Because I didn't
Want to settle

Sit alone inside
This dark room
Keep my troubles
To myself

Never talk about
My feelings
Because I think
It never helps

Isolated with my
Own thoughts
They keep making
Me the villain

Guess we all
Have insecurities
But always keep
Them hidden

Slam my door
Turn off my phone
I don't need
The interaction

If you thought
I was too much
Well good, you
Only got a fraction

Bottle after
Bottle, one
Emotion
To the next

Throw my phone
Across the room
So I don't ever
Send a text

This anxiety
Hostility, laid
Out inside
This journal

People say
That I look fine
But never knew
That it's internal

Miss you more
And more each day
But they all said
It would be different

Knew that it would
Take some time
And wouldn't
Happen an instant

Guess it was
The wrong time
Wrong place
Perfect person

Tried to tell me
I'm too ignorant
But felt I was
So certain

Take me
To another life
Where we both
Felt the same
We don't have
To think twice

I said save me
From this universe
Can't keep
Feeling this way
No it couldn't
Be worse

Will we meet up
In the future
Where were older
Maybe wiser

Yea they tell me
To let go, but yet
My heart keeps
Holding tighter

If I told you I
Still feel the same
Would you
Just shrug it off

One more heartache
Added to the list
I'd cry, then
Brush it off

Special moments
Hate to reminisce
A series on repeat

Once I start to
Miss your smile
Stop myself and
Then retreat

It's the small things
That's affecting
Me, her laugh
Her soothing voice

But you pushed
Me to the brink
And only left me
With one choice

Now I'm stuck
Along this narrow
Road, there is
No end in sight

Always think
Throughout the day
But do the most
When it's at night

Songs on playlists
I've heard once
Before, but now have
Different meanings

Caught between a
Rock, a hard place
I can't tell which
Way I'm leaning

All these obstacles
I'm facing
The uncertainty
A crisis

No one wants to
Hear my issues
It's the reason
Why I write this

Lay my head
Against this pillow
Where I wish you
Would reside

Can't get over
These emotions
It's just how
I feel inside

Take me
To another life
Where we both
Felt the same
We don't have
To think twice

I said save me
From this universe
Can't keep
Feeling this way
No it couldn't
Be worse