Nervous Break

I don't want to hear from you
I don't want to talk to you
Thanks for all the damage
Now I'm checking in the hospital
Strapped me to the bed
Heard you claim you're not responsible
While all the nurses say he's on the verge of a nervous break
Thanks, I'm on the verge of a nervous break
Nervous break
Nervous break
Nervous break
Nervous break
Nervous break

I don't want to hear from you
I don't want to talk to you
Thanks for all the damage
Now I'm checking in the hospital
Strapped me to the bed
Heard you claim you're not responsible
While all the nurses say he's on the verge of a nervous break
Thanks, I'm on the verge of a nervous break
Nervous break
Nervous break
Nervous break
Nervous break
Nervous break

Bear witness and stare
Here is the beard of mischievous wizard of weird
Hair twisted and snared
Vision is clear
Shifting gears as I think of ideas
Wishing I could just disappear
Into thin air
My appearance is a thinnest veneer
There is for a kid that was little and scared of his sibling
Living in fear of getting hit
Yeah, belittle my tears
But now that I'm bigger, it's, this isn't fair
I sit in a chair and swivel
Crippled from years of whippings
kicking my rear
I can't be civil with this typical hypocritical male
Who fails to wiggle or switch on a stance
There's no sympathy there
I'm whittling sticks just to stick in his ear
Cause you're so tone deaf, you can't listen or hear
A mental midget with significant limits
Never timid to dish it
A professional dickhead is his career
but God forbid if you dare to diss him
It's vicious and fierce
Hand the man a tissue
I'm tickled if you think I'd care or miss you
Cause you're the cause of all my issues
This is sincere
You drew a literal line in the sand
And I can't understand Your twisted view
That simply isn't true
Like you've been the victim to this abuse
I took the lickings and I'm living proof of what you did
Sitting in your living room
A mirror image of the criticism of the cynicism
Cause you're miserable and in the mood
You think it's cool to be dismissive and cruel
Quick to be rude
Everything you do is an example of why I can't stand you
So this is it cause we're through
I'm throwing the deuce to this joker, it's over
Oh if only you knew

I don't want to hear from you
I don't want to talk to you
Thanks for all the damage
Now I'm checking in the hospital
Strapped me to the bed
Heard you claim you're not responsible
While all the nurses say he's on the verge of a nervous break
Thanks, I'm on the verge of a nervous break
Nervous break
Nervous break
Nervous break
Nervous break
Nervous break

I don't want to hear from you
I don't want to talk to you
Thanks for all the damage
Now I'm checking in the hospital
Strapped me to the bed
Heard you claim you're not responsible
While all the nurses say he's on the verge of a nervous break
Thanks, I'm on the verge of a nervous break
Nervous break
Nervous break
Nervous break
Nervous break
Nervous break

This intimidating victim blamer
Instigates my inner rage and instant anger
Just can't entertain his insane answers
Or commiserate in a civil way or manner
Without smashing dinner plates
And flipping tables in a tantrum
I was in the ring of swinging bantam
V.S. a bigger man
That's more fearsome Grizzly bear
Who thinks he's managed to different
But he did the damage
And it's interfering with my chances
I guess it's still just William's family
And the bully Billy built
Fills me with this feeling of resentment
Thoughts of killing
Nearly sent me off a building
But God is Mark resilient
And I won't let this villain's will command me
I'm off my kilter
Standing on my stilts
Who chops who down
You clown
Now I'm walking tilted like I'm little Bambi
Where's he think I get it from
Waiting for the dust to settle
But it never does
I could've been a ghetto thug and peddled drugs
instead I leveled up
Despite the ever present presence of malevolence
The evanescence of the evidence of shedding blood
In your head has kept us from connecting
Once again you pretend it's us
It's you
It's what you do to others
When you screw the pooch and fuck the coop
But then the hen comes home to roost
I'm done because we're through

I don't want to hear from you
I don't want to talk to you
Thanks for all the damage
Now I'm checking in the hospital
Strapped me to the bed
Heard you claim you're not responsible
While all the nurses say he's on the verge of a nervous break
Thanks, I'm on the verge of a nervous break
Nervous break
Nervous break
Nervous break
Nervous break
Nervous break

I don't want to hear from you
I don't want to talk to you
Thanks for all the damage
Now I'm checking in the hospital
Strapped me to the bed
Heard you claim you're not responsible
While all the nurses say he's on the verge of a nervous break
Thanks, I'm on the verge of a nervous break
Nervous break
Nervous break
Nervous break
Nervous break
Nervous break

My mind is wired differently
I try to fight my instincts to be violent instantly
I close my eyes like I am listening
To a quiet choir or a silent symphony
Giving thanks and praise
I never prayed a day to the whiskey priest
Or gave away my dignity
But in an instant it was quickly stripped from me
And the fact that you're indignant to the things you did to me
Indicates a lack of thinking critically
I wish you'd see that my reactions are a symptom
And perhaps you'd have some sympathy
Which I think I need to begin to heal and feel forgiveness
But your indifference to the instances of which I speak
Gives me inferences that will never give me peace
My body's responding physically
I've sought help clinically to intercede
But I swing and miss while you were dinging hits
Like the biggest kid in Little League
When my mind is hijacked by my amygdala
I have given up trying to distinguish the particulars
Of a difference of opinion from a killer with a gun
And it results in flinging stuff and fisticuffs
And if you think it's done
I'll bring it up again until I've won
I guess to some I'm just too much to bear
I wonder where the love is
When the ones that care are running scared
From what they hear
So cup your ears cause here it comes