Nonbeliever.

It's like the wonder died
I had some dreams and fantasies you could see in my eyes
My favorite time was with my Momma that was story time
She told me every classic laying down to rest my eyes
Cuddled up, sing a song to me and let me fly
Among the skies inside my dreams that I've internalized for years passed
Look into the mirrored glass
I don't know who I am
I guess what I loved just wasn't meant to last

I don't believe in myself
I don't believe in y'all
I don't believe in anything where anything's involved
This ain't the make-believing that my Momma used to make for me
Ain't no Hogwarts no more brushing my teeth
There ain't no more Bertie Botts, or chocolate frogs
Never been no astronaut, among the stars
Ain't no chance we'll get our white picket fence and yard
Cause every time somebody save enough they raise the fucking bar

The optimist never found opulence and turned to a cynic
Became a botanist and often tried escaping insidious evils
And this world don't stop for shit but profits and spending
But when your heart is pure the pain will leave you often pretending
Often making faces and faking
But this ain't those DVDs on the TV I always watched in amazement
This ain't the way I thought the world worked and I fucking hate it
Don't believe in nothing you saying

But now
I don't believe in Jesus
I don't believe in God
I don't believe in anything where anything's involved
This ain't the make-believing that my Momma used to make for me
Ain't no more bedtime stories wrapped in my sheets
There ain't no more Jedi knights to guide my choices, living in the light
Ain't no job that's ever gonna get me off this fucking grind
There ain't no food inside my fridge with some nutrition to suffice
So why the fuck does nothing come without a fight?
Now everything has got a price
GDP ain't giving us the means so many people meeting poverty alike
At least Wall Street be at they all time highs
I wish that made, like, literally any difference in my life
I wish that I could get some treatments for these doubts I keep inside
That isn't solely pharmaceuticals applied
Cause I can fucking feel it, and you can see it in my eyes
I dun tried, and I tried, and what do I got to show for it?
And what do I got to show for it?
The fuck do I got to show for it?

I don't believe in myself
I don't believe in y'all
I don't believe in anything where anything's involved
This ain't the make-believing that my Momma used to make for me
Ain't no Hogwarts no more brushing my teeth
There ain't no more Bertie Botts, or chocolate frogs
Never been no astronaut, among the stars
Ain't no love that's unconditional so you don't fall apart
Ain't no chance I'm gonna risk it letting down my guard
Nah