Disappear (feat. Tyler Church & Krizz Kaliko)

I remember that fateful night, outside of the Chi
I walked out to the highway with intention to die
Searching for identity, I'm fuckin' living a lie
Screaming to the top of my lungs, i just wish I could cry
Cuz it's all bottled up and I just feel like I'm stuck
Because nobody listens or they don't give a fuck
I got suicide thoughts so god forbid that I cross
Their perfect existence, Nevermind that I'm lost
That's why my hearts coated in frost and I'm just loathing 'em all
I don't need the assist so don't throw me the ball
Cuz y'all created this beast out of fear and neglect
Now I'm hunting my feast fueled by years of regret
I was just a friend in the shadows, you all left me in sin
Alone fending my battles, misrepresenting the ones who depend
On all of you assholes now I'm at my fuckin' wits end because

Got no more to give
No tears to cry
Don't wanna live in fear
I don't wanna live, I don't wanna die
I just wanna disappear
I just wanna disappear
I just wanna disappear

They tell me that i'm slippin tell me
I should get help
It ain't healthy what i'm sippin on but
I ain't been well
Since i was Probably twelve,
i just hide in my shell
Been Residing in hell, in a fiery cell
My demons got me in jail
Don't got the time to Beef with you cause i been fightin' myself
And my Reflection is winnin' its tellin' me to give up
It's tellin' me to give into the shit i try to be tough
But i ain't Seein' no end to this shit my life is just fucked
Cause every time that i trust i get a knife in the gut
And every time that i love my heart get sliced i been cut
By Every dime that i've fucked they like the sight of my blood
They like that I ain't enough and i'm sick of livin here
If they keep Tryin' me fuck it then i'll just disappear
Call me crazy i love it when i get down in the dumps so i can get out
But its fucked cause i need the pain To make art so its nothin positive bout it i said

Got no more to give
No tears to cry
Don't wanna live in fear
I don't wanna live, I don't wanna die
I just wanna disappear
I just wanna disappear
I just wanna disappear



Credits
Writer(s): Matthew Church
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