Can't No More

I have tried to fight but I can't no more
Remember how you would fight for me but now you don't, no
My eyes have cried and cried and still you don't know
The pain growing inside, I can't no more

Two steps forward, ten steps back
Funny how I was happy now am tryna go back
Chasing all the money while my problems pile up like stacks
Even in my sleep it's been so hard to relax
I feel like Noah, only a few will get that
Hurt like Job and I endure the backlash
Can never ever describe to you what I feel
Just know I was on fire for you now what's left is ash
Am numb, can you feel that?
Of course you don't cause you ain't never had to feel that
Feel like you could disappear and nobody would care
Or if you scream, no one will help but they'll stare
And wonder what's wrong, paint a different picture
Give the tip of an iceberg but no one swims deeper
Give one-shot solutions yet am easily triggered
Why am I easily triggered?

I have tried to fight but I can't no more
Remember how you would fight for me but now you don't, no
My eyes have cried and cried and still you don't know
The pain growing inside, I can't no more

Am not suicidal, am just tired of living that's all
Yeah I read the Bible, but even Saints fall
Sit down in a room that is dark
Don't know if I need to punch something or if i need a hug
Can't find no words to actually describe it
Been so hard to even try to scribe it
Thunderstorms they actually reminded
Me, of what's happening, how am blinded
From sunset to sunrise
Positivity...