Did it to Myself (feat. Jaysmooth)

The thought of you with someone else
Has me thinking to myself
Was I not perfect or not worth it

I never want to be alone
But sometimes I'm just headstrong
But am I selfless or just helpless

Life strings me along with nothing there to hold on
I wish I didn't hate myself but now I'm all alone
But I did it to myself

I sit here to myself
Thinking you're with someone else
Am I jealous or being selfish

I never wanted this to end
I just don't know where my head's been
Am I crazy a little daisy

Life strings me along with nothing there to hold on
I wish I didn't hate myself but now I'm all alone

Okay Look

I remember all the time the texts the calls we shared
I thought you would be the one
You said you'd never fail
My head was all in You surrounded every thought
My heart was deep emotions craved to feel the hope I sought
What I keep finding crazy is that maybe
You are where I was feeling my safety without erasing
Now I see it from different lenses you were in a deep disguise
Uncovered now My future bound to realize I'm not surprised

I sit here by myself trying to hold on
Sitting by myself trying to hold on now yea
I really did this to myself what's really going on
Sitting here by myself trying to figure this thing out

Life strings me along yes it does yes it does
With nothing there to hold on
Life stringing me along nothing to hold on to yea
I wish I didn't hate myself
Wish I didn't hate myself
But now I'm all alone

But I did it to myself